I've mentioned a bit about how I've been feeling lately - a bit more down than usual, lonely, and stressed. These are things I'm rarely quick to share with others, but I have plans and a reason for sharing it today.
As you may have noticed, I've had a slight change of my mindset lately. It's essentially that anything which has too much power in my life needs to be suppressed or erased from my life. It's a simple idea that may be obvious to some, but once I decided to direct my attention this way I've learned a lot about myself.
I believe this “anxiety” or “stress” I'm dealing with is linked to loneliness and feeling as though I'm not “good enough” for basic things in life. I'm in a strange time-warp, and I'm feeling a bit off. However, I've gained the skill of solving problems in the workplace, so why not apply that on a personal level as well?
I'm on a “quest” to solving these internal issues. My approach is to be more involved in the lives of others, be more creative in how I interact with them, and be more willing to make sacrifices for them. Often I think our gut-reaction to issues like these is to either do nothing and hope it gets better, or seek attention with the wrong motives. On the contrary, I have a feeling the solution is to make yourself even more uncomfortable - just with humble motives.
I'm revisiting old friends, investing my time into learning more about the problem, and taking life one day at a time. Opportunities don't usually come to you, often you have to create them for yourself.