Recently, I've been dealing with a lot of internal battles. There's been a lot of doubt, negativity, and fear mixed into my day to day life. Staying positive is sometimes a challenge, but I know I'm not alone. Over the past few days, I've felt an overwhelming wave of darkness fall over my friends and family. But, I had a "God moment" that I wasn't expecting to happen.
A few days ago, I was stressing over this situation. People were telling me about their struggles all at once meanwhile I've had some of my own. Supporting the people I care about is one of my biggest priorities in life, but it's difficult when I'm feeling out of it.
"God moment" is a strange term and I will think about it more in the future, but for now I'm using it for the sake of simplicity.
The verse above popped up on my phone the same day I was feeling the most overwhelmed about this. I was worried that I would say the wrong thing to people who needed my help. I was scared I couldn't help them at all or that they would think I'm fake. I pictured everything going wrong, and I was terrified of it happening. But, this verse reassured me that everything was going to be fine.
When it comes down to it, I learned that I just need to tell myself to shut up. Seriously. I literally turned off my laptop, put on some worship music, and focused on God's presence.
The best part about that is that God doesn't need you to talk if you don't want to. To me, that is the most comforting thing to know.
The day after I went to God and asked for help, He reminded me that there's a bigger reason for carrying others' burdens. It makes me think of when Jesus carried the cross after being beaten nearly to death. He didn't have to carry the cross, but He did it anyway. Not because he loved the cross, but because he loved the people he was saving.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to say that I feel perfect now. Jesus rose from the dead but I'm still struggling. The point is that God can handle anything. He can handle all of the crazy mess that you're dealing with.
There's so much peace to find in that fact.