As Ready As I'll Ever Be

Today was just another ordinary day. I woke up, got out of bed, and made breakfast. Normal. Then, I took a look outside and noticed it was a bit overcast, so I suddenly got really excited because the last time it even sprinkled was in January.

Then I got to thinking about how long ago January was, and it hit me that it’s now October. I paused for a moment because that fact hadn’t quite clicked in my mind yet. But the more I thought about it, the crazier things got.

My brain process went something like this:

1 - It’s already October.
2 - I’m in Module 6 of Praxis.
3 - I’m probably moving out of state next month.
4 - I turn 18 next month.

And it’s all just hitting me all of a sudden - that is, how quickly time flies. So I think I learned a valuable lesson today. For one thing, I knew that October would come. I knew I'd eventually reach Module 6, I knew I might be moving this time of year, and I knew I’d be 18 someday. Nothing here should be surprising! Everything is, essentially, going as planned.

So why am I shocked anyhow?

I think it’s because I’m not 100% ready. But then again, who really is?

Maybe we’re not supposed to be totally prepared going into every situation that we encounter. How boring would life be without the adrenaline that comes from taking risks? As long as you’ve got curiosity, creativity, and a willingness to constantly adapt and solve issues, you’re as ready as you can be.

I think life is better lived when focused on the means to the end, rather than the end itself. So in this situation, as long as I have those core values at the front of my mind, I just get to see where they take me. Truth is, I don’t want to live life worrying about every decision that I make. I just want to be smart about it, be brave, and live. I may not be ready to take on these changes, but I’m ready to embrace the next phase of my journey.