I've been going to church my whole life. I became a Christian when I was 5 and I was baptized when I was 9. My testimony is a miraculous one, as is everyone's, but that's a story for another time. The point is my whole life I've always been really involved with church. Every Sunday I was in Sunday school singing along with the kids songs, making crafts that had something to do with the story we learned (you know, Noah's ark, Moses, Adam and Eve). I'm not saying any of this is bad, I'm only trying to make a point. I think by now you get the idea.
Things started to change when I got older as I started to doubt my faith in Christianity. I was seeking truth, but when I wasn't getting solid answers I started to lose interest. My passion for Jesus started to fade away even though I knew he was there. I was just confused. It seemed my church friends had lots of emotional connections with God. They seemed to know Him on a more personal level and I started to wonder why I didn't have that too. To put it simply I felt like an outcast. I was confused and losing hope because I wasn't finding clarity.
I still hung out at church but I kept my issues hidden. I didn't want to draw attention to myself and I didn't want to offend anyone. Instead I decided to keep going with the motions and hope that someday something would change. I continued to pray and live the Christian lifestyle but I knew I needed to have some questions answered. Thankfully God saw my struggles with this and He came through. Here's the three books that really helped me understand my walk with God.
1) Mere Christianity - C.S. Lewis
C.S. Lewis provides some great philosophical arguments for the existence of God by touching on topics like morality and human nature. If nothing else, it definitely reassured me of God's existence and it was refreshing to debate this topic with others.
2) The Case for Christ - Lee Strobel
Mere Christianity was only the beginning. After reading The Case for Christ I was unable to deny the evidence for Christ, in fact it was overwhelming. I think often God will do that to us. He brings us to a point of desperation and then comes through so strong that it's almost too much for us to handle. It only makes sense, He's the creator of everything we know.
3) The Bible Tells Me So... - Peter Enns
People hate this book, in fact a lot of Christians hate it too. By the time I read this book I was no longer doubting God's existence, but I was still feeling conflicted about Christianity itself. Of the three books I listed, this one left the biggest impact for me. I think if there's truth, it has to be logical, undeniable, and rock solid. Often times Christians give answers that bother me because their answers are too vague. I kept finding a lot of contradictions in the Bible and I was having a hard time understanding why. I didn't make sense and it disturbed me. This book changed that.
Looking back on my journey I know I was doubting, but I never really gave up on Jesus. I always knew the truth, I just wanted more and when it seemed like there wasn't any, I got bored. There should never be bored Christians. But, as I said, God came through and smacked me out of it.
Go ahead and check these books out, you'll be surprised. I promise.